ChanQianLing . Seventeen . Typical Capricorn . SAB . Bigbang . 2NE1 . Running Man Family .
“Life is like riding a bicycle. To keep your balance, you must keep moving.” ― Albert Einstein
"There's a story behind every person. There's a reason why they're the way they are. They aren't just like that because they want to. Something in the past created them, and sometimes it's impossible to fix them."
"Life isn't about finding yourself, life is about creating yourself."
Yet, we lost.
To the judges.
I can't accept the fact that we actually lost to THEM.
Before the champion is announced,
I was still hoping that we could win.
Some of the others who are not PBSM also cheered for us.
My heart stop beating,
The atmosphere becomes awkward for a while,
When their skuad was announced as the champion instead of us.
It's not that I think we must win,
But we really did our very best and it's almost perfect.
I control myself,
Not to let the tears flow out of my eyes.
But I couldn't help it,
When our commander leaded us Sambarei.
I was thinking,
Were we really worse than them?
My mind told me NO.
I was trying to register myself that they are the champion,
But my mind refuse to.
It tells me that we deserve to win.
It's not anyone's fault.
We can't blame anyone,
Something must have went wrong.
There's never fair in this world.
The only thing we can do is,
Take this as an experience,
Never underestimate any skuads,
Go through this pain,
Do better next year,
And prove to the judges that they were wrong about us.
3 months of practice,
Under the sun,
Full with tears and laughters,
Knowing each other more and feel the togetherness in us,
Sweat like no one's business everyday,
Apply sunblock over and over again,
Made all 31 of us become tanned,
That the others can recognize who are the ones were joining kawad.
Seeing people who are not PBSM posting and commenting posts on Facebook,
Supporting us that we should have won the whole thing,
Made me cried again.
Everyone was telling us that we deserve that,
Even some others who did not witness it.
Youtube PBSM Kawad Video,
Was being reposted all around Facebook.
I replayed it again and again,
Watching how good did we perform,
Flashbacks about how hard did we trained for the past 3 months,
Made me cried another time.
Facebook PBSM Kawad group,
Seeing everyone's posts to comfort each other and how unfair it is.
I am one of them to comfort them too,
But it just couldn't help to comfort myself.
Yet,
I cried once again.
I'm sorry,
I can't recover the pain in one day.
I'm sorry,
we didn't get the trophy.
I'm sorry,
we failed your wish.
Seriously,
I don't like this kind of feeling.
The feeling of losing a competition that we actually did well.
I know that there's only one winner in every competition.
But well,
This is really unexpected.
Seriously 'amat mengejutkan'.
We just need time,
To go through this pain.
To accept the fact that we lost.
To accept the fact that they won.
We can't do anything by now.
Nowadays,
I feel really uncomfortable if I don't walk with my hands swing high,
Legs V shape and tangan genggam while singing Negaraku,
Hand spring while ikrar.
I really need time to get used without kawad.
It's a part of my high school life.
Went to school and some of my friends were telling me,
How great did we did,
And how that should be ours.
I seriously don't know what to react.
Just gave them a smile,
And thanks for supporting us.
Thanks for the 3 months of sacrifices.
Sorry for my wrongdoings within these 3 months.
You really did well your roll as a commander.
* Hormat! *
And thank you to those who comforted me and supporting us. :)
I am happy and pleased enough,
That we actually won the audience heart.
I can hear many people cheering for us while it's our turn.
Yeah, basically,
WE WON.
I'm proud to say that.
Now I know,
15 minutes,
Is enough to know whether the 3 months of practice is worth or not.
For me,
It's is worth,
That we gained the audience cheers.
For now,
I really hope that Renjer will shine in Zon Pudu,
All the best. ;)
But really,
I can't wish the champion skuad to shine in Zon Pudu,
With a sincere heart.
I just couldn't accept it.
2013,
Let's try it again and move on.
Prove to the others,
And make a pbsm-story. :)
Hoii ;)
We strive as one,
We are the solid particles. :)
Await for PBSM Skuad Kawad Comeback Stage, 2013. ;)
hair ah hairr. why you no grow faster?
I don't want my hair to have so much gel during kawad competition :(
Woah time flies, it's already March.
March,
a month which is really excited especially for those who are joining the kawad competition on the 21st.
All the representatives for kawad from all uniform bodies will be practising bersungguh-sungguhly. Especially the comander, they will plan out any time free to train the squad. They are ready to sacrifice their time and strength to make their squad to be the winner.
; everyone's aim is to be the champion, but there still must be only ONE.
I sincerely hope that WE can win again this year, like what we did last year. I hope this will become the truth on that day. And yeah, I don't wanna ruin the commander's birthday. Just hope that everything will be alright.
Practices are what we need now. Hope the coming kawad practice will be smooth. GAMBATEH! ;)
OH YEAH!! MY TUJUAN FOR THIS POST IS ACTUALLY TO ANNOUNCE THAT INTERVENSI IS FINALLY OVER!! oh yay after 4 days of brainstorming xD
I'm so sorry my dear brain, torturing you to store in so much information although I know your memory is already full. Sorry my eyes, for not letting you close for 22 hours per day. Sorry my soul and body, for not letting you to take a sleep and nap. And all of you can take a rest now woohoo. hahaha.
I know i'm kind of weird now xD hahaha. Okayyy talking about intervensi. I actually did quite bad for Bm and Sejarah -.- I admit that I might not had prepared early but i jad tried my best. Well, just tell myself that this is just an intervensi, a trial for is to cope up with PMR. ;)
Happy happy :D
Byeee gotta find something to do to entertain myself ;D
addicted :3
Got improvements althugh had not been playing for 1 week nyehehe :D
Yes, we did it. For the very first time, I laughed so happily with tears. Thanks people for that 15 minutes and 3 months. We made a beautiful history. No, it's not a history, it's gonna be forever. It's not the end yet, people. So let's continue this spirit and win again for the second time. :)
during our marching competition ;)
PBSM Girls Squad 2011
Girls and Boys Squad 2011 :')
everyone was hugging each other when we knew that we won. :D
We Serve As One. :)
the trophy <3 <3 <3
PBSM Girls Squad 2011.
We've been through a lot of things together. We've been punished together, laughed together, had fun together, cried together, marching together, been scolded by the commander together, went back home late everyday, went to school on holidays. We're doing everything together. Thanks for giving me such a great memory for the first year I join this squad. I hope it'll be the same for the coming years. And, I swear I'll join the marching competition again until I leave SAB. I love this squad and every single one of you. PBSM, We serve as ONE. :'D <3
SPM results today. Congrats to those who got flying colours results, especially SAB-ians. You guys did a great job. ;)
To be honest, this is a really tiring holiday yet fun being together with the kawad members. Tuesday until Friday, all of us were having marching training from early the morning when you guys are still sleeping inside the blanket with air-cond until afternoon under the hot sun. I'm not blaming anything but I'm glad that we can do until this stage, I sincerely hope that we can do the best of our best on next Wednesday. It's our show time. Remember what we aim for? We wanna win. :) Four more days from now.
People, take more rest and lets show our best on the coming marching competition. We're gonna make it a history right, no regrets. :D PBSM, We Serve As One. <3
Jeng Yee, Zi Yao, Tammie, Yu Han, Eunis, Hyn-Yi, Sher Ee, Xi Tian, Shi Ern, Wei Hwei, Vivien, See Kee, Victoria, Norbaya, Su Jane, Yuvee, Shuet Ling, Ming Yan, Yee Ling, Xue Leng, Sue Sie, Yu Jing, Dawn, Jasmine, Filza, Xian En, Zi Lim, Zhun Yan, Aiman, Qian Ling. PBSM GARYAO. <3 Let's make it a history between that 15 minutes and shows that PBSM boleh. :) 230311 is gonna rock.
So yeah, holiday homework not done yet, hehee. Gonna rush it last minute tomorrow. I don't know whether am I able to finish all. :/
I just can't sleep tonight, knowing that things ain't right.
It's in the papers, it's on the tv, it's every where that I go.
Children are crying, soldiers are dying, some people don't have a home.
Cause I know there's sunshine behind that rain.
I know there's good times behind that pain, hey.
Can you tell me how I can make a change?
I close my eyes, and I can see a better day.
I close my eyes, and pray.
I close my eyes, and I can see a better day.
I close my eyes, and pray.
I lose my appetite, knowing kids starve tonight.
And when I sit up, cause my dinner is still on my plate.
Ooh I got a vision, to make a difference.
And it's starting today.
But I know there's sunshine behind that rain. I know there's good times behind that pain, hey.
Haven't tell me how I can make a change.
I close my eyes, and I can see a better day.
I close my eyes, and pray.
I close my eyes, and I can see a better day.
I close my eyes, and pray for the broken-hearted.
I pray for the life not started.
I pray for all the ones not breathing.
I pray for all the souls in need, I pray.
Can you give 'em one today?
I just can't sleep tonight.
Can you tell me how I can make a change?
I close my eyes, and I can see a better day.
I close my eyes, and pray.
I close my eyes, and I can see a better day.
I close my eyes, and I pray..
I pray.. I pray.. ~
People, let us pray for the Japanese who are suffering for the earth quake and tsunami. Lets pray for the lives, for the world, for our future, for the earth. (: Japanese, stay strong and just get over with it. You know that there will be something good happening right after you suffer. <3
ps: I love this song doesn't mean that I love Justin Bieber. I'm not his fan. :P
Time flies, March is here already and of course, the first term holiday is coming very soon too. :D I felt this year is going on very fast, but I've not been doing any things yet. LOL Also, March equals to the month of marching competition. PBSM girl squad had just finished our first formation, and we have to work hard for the rest of it. We only left two more weeks. Oh god!
Teachers were giving out the exam papers all along the week. I'm not really satisfied with it because all my B's is almost A. -.- Fine, this is only a small test, not the important ones. :)
On the past Wednesday was Ms Tan's retirement. Xian En, Vanessa, Aika, I and some other girls wore the traditional dresses and represented the teachers and students to give out the prizes to Ms Tan. It was quite embarrassing though. :/ Aikks, my throat hurts after shouting so loud. :(
Friday, it was the first Friday of March. As usual, we had Asuhan Rohani. All the non-muslims watched an Indian movie about love, I think. It lasted for 2 hours and it's so boring. The story line was so not interesting at all, it's like repeating and repeating the same thing. Haha, talked a lot with my friends during that time. xD
Well, yesterday my school held an annual cross country competition. As expected, Syahbandar won again for the third year continuously. yaay xD Proud of it. One more reason that I'm happy is, I got 43rd in the category of lower form girls. That's enough for me as I'm not really a person who can run. heh ;) GO GREEN :D !
OMG, rumours all around me now. zz All I can do is just keep my mouth shut. :)
